Just sayin' ..

... eating three toffee crisps, though yummy, is not good!

Anyway ....
I was taking stock of everything that is going on directly in my circle of close family, then all my ripples outwards of friends and family .. and decided that there's a lot of $h*T going on .... and I thought maybe, directly or indirectly, I'm soaking everything negative up like a sponge and getting bigger!!! I am, and no doubt, always will be, an emotional eater .. I happy eat, I sad eat, I stress eat, you name it, I eat it!!!! And that's not good!
One thing I've yet to discover is how to get over this problem ... maybe I should turn into a hard bitch and not care ~ but that really isn't me!
Maybe I should just try to let things float on past me ~ but I try to help where I can! I need to halve everyone's upsets!
Maybe I should get rid of all the people with problems! Yeah, right!   Like I'd do that!!!! I love my family and friends (even the ones that no longer love me!)
So I really need to find me a fail safe mechanism to protect me from eating crud!
Maybe I've too much time on my hands to sit and think these deep thoughts!!!!
Maybe I should ...
Maybe I should .....
Maybe I should ........ WHAT!!!!!

Well thank you body ...

.... for giving me a super little cold sore on my lip .. just to add to my loveliness ...!!!
Feeling so ugh .... it's uggish!

What to do ...

.... There's something going on .. but I'm a bit scared, and am dragging my feet about what to do about it!
In some respects I don't want to know!!!!  But I suppose I must!

There! Done it .. this morning 24/5 .. I booked to see my consultant!

The Blues ...

"I went to get weighed .... da na da nah
I'd put on again .... da na da nah
I was really fed up ....  da na da nah
'Cos I'd already paid .... da na da nah
I had a good chat .... da na da nah
I felt better again .... da na da nah
I drove myself home .... da na da nah
And my tummy was sore .... da na da nah
I had a quick feel .... da na da nah
and a lump there was found .... da na da nah
Really feel down now .... da na da nah
Too down to get up .... da na da nah
What should I do now .... da na da nah
I'll fill up on grub!

That's what I've got today...

Oh Blimey! ...

... It's all gone to pot again ... not as bad as last week, but still off the rails!!!!
I'm doing alright till about 5ish then I REALLY crave chocolate .. and that's all I can think about!!!
Ho hum!

xx

Really hate myself ...

... today I'm totally disgusted with myself .. had a good long think about it .. and I'm not happy!
This past week I have been real bad food wise, and am too embarrassed to even tell hubby about it!
I need to talk to my Little Pink One about it because it involves her .. and shall I tell you how!!!
Hidden, in my knicker drawer, is a partly eaten Leonidas chocolate hen. Little Pink One had bought it for her friend when they went with their Dad to Belgium in half term, only, she hadn't given it to her friend, she'd forgotton about it and I found it when I tidied her room.
I put it on her shelf and told her about it ... and there it sat, and it sat and it sat... I think she's forgotten about it again. Anyway, yesterday I was at a low, so I casually meandered upstairs, cut the bag open carefully as it was very noisy, and ate some of it!  Now, what makes this even worse is the fact that it's strong dark chocolate and I don't like strong dark chocolate, but I ate it anyway then felt sick! 
What kind of person does that???
ME .. a big fat out of control pig with no willpower whatsoever!
With that said .... I shall now go and eat some more .. because I'm unhappy!!!!!

There's just no helping some people!!!!

And now, to top it all off .. all the lovely ladies on FB are putting up all their fab losses!  Well done to all of them, so wish I could join them!! xxxxx

.. and so I desended ...

.... into a pretty bad week!  One thing after another and certainly not enough planning this week has surely paved the way for a gain for me tomorrow .. all my own doing and all my own fault!
I really mustn't let chocolate into the house ... I can't stop myself reaching for it at times of unhappiness or stress!!!
I must plan for my shop this week and start tomorrow with a better attitude!

xxxxx